I wonder what will happen if one day I lose control of myself. Will I be even worse than what I am now? When I feel angry, or sad, I talk to myself. Convice myself that I must not be violent, not to overreact.

But what if I can't do it anymore? Is it really going to be bad? Will anyone love me anymore?

I almost wanted to scream today. I am so sick of a person around me who talks as if that person(TP) was a level higher than all of us. TP talks as if TP wants to threaten us all. TP thinks TP is the best. I'm really getting so sick of it. I get so frustrated and frightened sometimes, and it's really enough.

And TP's counterpart, shan't say who but refer as TPR. TPR is supposed to be equal, to be just. But TPR just isn't being fair. TPR loves some, dislikes the rest. It's even worse than what I had experienced before.