My advice; Just drop it, you only have a year left anyway. Spend it well, or make it hurt, choose one?
Anyway I had an overall annoying day today.
I hate public transport a lot a lot a lot! And every time I take the public transport, I get more and more pissed with the country and its people. I hope the govt doesn't come and sue me for saying this because don't get me wrong, Singapore can be a nice place, but I just hate damn crowded places.
Anyway, about public transport, there are way too many people. So much that even your public transport system cannot tank anymore. Look at the poor NEL trains squeaking like hell, working their asses off. And at the second stop from the ends, you can't even get any seats anymore! At the halfway mark, people and being compacted like sardines. Hell, even at the first stop, if you're unlucky you can't even get ANY seats.
Today I stood from Potong Pasir to Clementi. And on the green line, I found a pole to park myself at, seeing as there weren't any seats. I bent down to put my laptop on the floor, and as I stood back up, this Indian guy totally whacked my head with his damned elbow. And he didn't even mumble an apology. He just looked at me like I went to headbutt him. Seriously, can't he see that people who bend down have to stand back up? Does he ever take the train bending down? Sheesh. People nowadays are idiots.
After the opening of the circle line, the poor NEL is always full, and I really hate for it to be that way.
My desktop spoilt today.
I need to wake up freaking early tomorrow, damn it.
Sigh.
Annoying!
I don't really do that anyway because it makes me sick. The rain makes me cold and I fall sick.
Lucky I didn't go out with Theo and Pamela and Charmaine. If not I will be soaked to the skin.
Freak, that means the water is going to be freezing later.
The iTunes is annoying me, it keeps wanting to play Suna no Oshiro when I don't want to listen to that song.
Ah, I'm taking it one day at a time. Reality is, there is only such a short time left. Cass has done whatever she can, and all she has to do is wait. Wait like there's an eternity to wait out.
I am freaking not going to fall in love with guys who have a problem with faith. But guys are like that, aren't they? They don't really know what 'I Love You' means.
Is there really a reversal of the sexes now? (ooh look, a palindrome)
Girls nowadays are doing so much more than guys are, and guys nowadays are whining so much more. Guys are lazy. Look at my Dad, he never ever does housework, shoves newspaper in whatever crevice he can find, falls asleep perfectly on the bed without switching the lights off, and kicks me off the sofa when his fat butt wants a seat.
Mum is like, doing all the housework, and all the tedious work that makes her sleep at 2.30am, while Dad is in his REM at 10.30pm.
Talking about sleeping, my parents are sleepyheads.
There is at least once every week that I have to get pissed with them for oversleeping, because there's like a teethbrushing schedule thing. Dad always has to go brush first because he ALWAYS wants to barge into the toilet when either Mum or I are using it. Then it'll be me, then my mum. And I hate it when Dad doesn't wake up first, because that means Mum is never going to wake up on time.
Oh, and they have an alarm. TWO alarms, to be exact. Wait, I think it's 3. And they can't wake up on time. I, on the other hand, has only one alarm, and I can wake up on time.
So they woke up late today. Me too, because I wanted to wait for the Dad to wake up and brush his teeth first.
There was once I didn't have to wake up too early, but Mum's alarm rang at the normal time anyway. I could hear it from my room and got woken up by it, but she didn't turn it off. So it stopped lullabying after like 2 minutes, and went to snooze.
It did so for 3 times.
I got annoyed 3 times.
She still didn't hear the alarm so I went.
"EHEHEH. GET THE ALARM!!!!!!"
And she jumped right up (I could hear the bed squeak.) and turned it off.
She later reported that she NEVER heard the alarm ringing.
Dad declined comment.
I swear he heard it but was too lazy. Like he's too lazy to even switch off the lights (he could leave them on for 2 hours after he sleeps. WTH.)
The laziness in my family is crazy.
I don't even want to imagine what happened last year when I stayed at the hostel.
And I'm complaining. Again. But this is what my blog is for so dun come if you dun like it.
An update again. The exchange students went home already and I miss them, the people… Not the shopping though. Can do without it. Shit, I need to write an essay for Biology.
Things have been going well and not well at the same time. But I guess the well part gets the better influence this time. Had a really fun day today, I suppose. Sort of tired.
I've been watching Grey's Anatomy, but amazingly it's interesting. The quotes are really awesome, and the characters are just so… normal. I like Izzie the best. Feel that she's so alone sometimes, and she goes all the way to help her patients. Even on the emotions side. Meredith is just screwed over, but I think she's taking stuff one step at a time. So resilient. [BTW, I'm only at season 2 so I'm only speaking about that period] George is also some guy that people look down on, but he's actually a decent person. Alex is too ego, but he knows how to soften up in front of those that he really trust. Miranda Bailey is just so funny.
Yea, the situations and problems they face seem more realistic than… other weird dramas. Where at least someone is super talented and owning everyone. And SO freaking special. And they get to save the day. Sheesh, where's the reality in that? You mean, normal people don't have any significance at all?
Thought for the day: NEVER leave anyone behind. NEVER neglect anyone.
One day, you will be naked to everyone. And people will laugh at you.
Your heart does not yearn for anyone. You mind lusts over a handful of girls. You do not love, because no one will do for you. Not anymore.
How many times have an alternative path been laid down for you? You never took those because you are stupid.
You do not belong to yourself. For all the hurt you've caused to the people around you, they deserve a piece of you. As for me, I would rip your heart out, just like you did to mine. The others would be happy to dismember you. You deserve it.
And an army is being formed, none other by your own hands, to go against you. Nobody is the leader. We are there to claim what was originally ours.
My, my, such caustic words. You do not know how many you have hurt. A lover you never loved. A friend you can't wait to kill. A girl you can't wait to violate.
For my precious, you are never going to hurt me. I have always been lonely because of you. And you feel no remorse.
Such a kid. Don't you dare call your senior one.
You want to screw? Screw with your own life, screw with yourself. Don't hurt anyone else anymore. And I also suggest you heal those you have hurt.
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Don't you dare lay your hands on him. Don't you even dare put a finger on him.
Stop stepping on my toes and my nerves. Enough, is enough. If you can't be polite to me, neither am I going to be polite to you; until you change your mind.
I hate you. Yes, I really hate you.
I dislike hearing your voice. I dislike standing next to you. I dislike everything about you.
You're selfish. You're a spoilt brat. You're insincere. You're a horrible person.
I am forgotten because of you; because of your selfishness.
You were never thoughtful, never sensitive to the needs of others. You never cared for others' happiness when they compromise yours.
I don't see why I should bend to your ridiculous attitude, and let you run all over me. Maybe you're too fat, you run all over people as well.
So anyways, I really do hope that you can stay out of my sight, and keep your feet, AND HANDS, to yourself.
It's not as if you don't know what's going on. So find someone else to camp.
I saw people reading my blog today so I shall update so as not to upset them. Anyway, my 'busy playing maple' is what I am busy with during my relaxation times. So don't ask me why I have time for maple and not for work. I got to keep sane, people!
Anyway I have this 1000 word thing due on Saturday for my dear celine. Crap.
I got pissed today.
It's just disgusting how people can be that idiotic.
Overall not a good day.
Happy that I fell down during PE today, because it has been so long since I last fell physically. Having fallen so many times emotionally, collapsing, physically falling doesn't hurt at all. It actually was quite a natural feeling. I laughed after I fell.
Lol. Im going mad due to all these emotions.
I have been playing Maple these few days. Also, being busy with school work and rest.
I think it's really tough to be caught in between two emotions most of the time. Not only is it tough, it drains a lot of energy. I still have to factor in the energy I spend trying to figure out which emotion I should lean more towards.
Ever knew something very important yet you cannot tell anyone about it? Yes, that's how it is now. It has been so for a long time now, but I cannot say. Because I don't want to harm anyone. So here I am now, being underestimated. Shoved around like some worthless maggot.
Why is it that people who don't put in effort into a friendship gets to be closer to someone? Yet the others who do their very best to maintain friendships get kicked around and receive less from the other party?
No, it's not only me. I see it all around me. The ones who should get more, always get less.
I feel for them.
I know how much that hurts.
I want a friend who answers my questions. =(
Sadly the only one who could do so, doesn't do it anymore.
I hate being the one who almost made it to the top but is never the top.
Stupid person. Of course after whatever I've done you still refuse to cherish the friendship.
People who never did that much always are more important to you.
All you do is make me cry when you could make me smile.
No.
Others could make me happy. You make it last, because it is a form of reassurance nobody would understand except us.
Stupid stupid person. Why do you do this?