Rant time! Woohoo! And a good topic too.
Yeah, right. GOOD. I absolutely hate assed up things like that. You make me so fished up sometimes that I have to do this to stop myself from physically hitting you the next time i see you. Or throw my 3kg weight at you for that matter. Or say any vulgarities in front of you.
You LOUSY, LOOSE person who said I was LOOSE. Talk about yourself!
Yea, so what if two of my closer friends are guys? So what if I eat with them at the same table, walk in between them, or attend classes with them?! At least I don't go to some ulu place and hide ourselves and talk till like what, 9PM?!
It's just that our schedules FIT and we are even in the same MATH CLASS with similar HOMEWORK! And that's all the contact we get. We don't even take SO much flucking time off just to hide in someplace and hang out with each other. We DON'T do that, unlike YOU. Lousy mousy person.
First the 6th, now the 7th. First HUGGING. Now what? Sitting up there where nobody else can find you with TWO girls, until 9pm! And what do you say on normal days to me? "OH... I have to go at 7pm LATEST. Then i'll be safe, coz I'm NOT supposed to be in school after 7..." Ha. Ha. I am so going to laugh that you actually stayed with them till 9pm. In a restricted, unaccessible to civilian area.
Then you think it's no big deal. "9 ONLY WHAT." Only? ONLY?! ONLY!?!? What the **** man. So I say, why not set up a tent, and a nice fire and bring along some food. Then stay overnight in the nice warm cosy tent, huddled close. 9 only what. Why not till 5am then?
And you tell them SO MUCH. And tell me so little. Yet you want still expect me to talk to you the way they do. And i wrote letters to you, only to hear you tell me, "They're all crap." And when I tried to deny it, you insisted that they were crap. And who was the smart butthole who said that if you don't eat the food, you're not respecting the person who cooked it. I wrote to you, and you ****ing say that it's just crap. One day I shall just stuff my weights down your butthole.
You also said that you're sick of me being so jealous. Then what about you? Just coz I played rock-scissors-paper with Aaron Tay, you must get so pissed? I'm not even spending the whole of my evening with him in an ulu area! And also, since when have you stayed up till 9 just for the fun of it, or for me? NIL. NEVER EVER. And who was the one who said, "I swear I didn't hug her [someone else] intentionally!" or that he felt that he has sinned against me by just doing that? You. And now you scale greater heights, and you asked someone else, another girl, to hug you. And literally, scale greater heights, to be with them. For the whole evening, actually, till NIGHT.
I tell you, if you do that ever again, to do ANYTHING that pisses me off this way, I am going to pull you from wherever you are, by your ears. And if you don't move, I'll yank your ear off. And if you think that you're ever-so-right in doing those kind of shit, I'll swipe your mouth off. Or I'll set my dog on you.
You just wanna be with me? Hah. I can see that you mean it. not.
And man, I feel so freaking bad for typing all these out on my blog but oh wells, if i don't i'll probably get much worse, and it may be possible for me to scream till my lungs kaboom or something, something that would injure me physically. That is what happens when all these pissed up feelings cause by err-hmm... build up in me and i get short circuited (or become kuku). I can get injured badly. Or cause someone else to be injured.
And yes, I would have said that I still love him. But no, not now, it just doesn't fit at this moment, you know. I feel so betrayed. That he actually acts like he treasures the other girls more than he treasures me. Or that he feels they're more worth his time than I am.
Sigh, enough la. I already trying to hold back my tears for now liao. And typing this part makes me feel like... It makes me feel worse, like I really don't want to type these stuff out, but I have no choice.
He doesn't want to listen to me, and he insists he's right all the time at times like this. Then when I try to get it to reach his mind, he just says I'm incoherent. That I'm wrong, that it's my fault and my bad for talking to him like that. Then he just totally don't listen to me anymore, and he logs off his msn. He isn't even giving himself a chance to understand my reactions to his actions. He assumes that what he's doing is good, and nothing wrong, because it makes him feel good, and to him it's right, so he think that it is how I think as well.
If you get sick of me being jealous over such matters, then tell me which girl likes her boyfriend going to some ulu place with other girls, without her? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend sacrificing more time for those other girls than he does with her? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend saying that the letters she wrote to him are crap? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend always telling her how much better those other girls are?
Think about this, darling. And guys out there, seriously, spare a thought for your girlfriends before you do or say anything. Think, really, imagine if your girlfriend does that to you, then how would you feel? Will you ever listen to their thoughts? Or do you actually assume she would feel good about it just because you feel good?
How many tears are they shedding behind you? How many tears do they shed when you're there smiling to yourself? And do you know how much they want to be with you? Is it really right to do things like that for your own gains?
You LOUSY, LOOSE person who said I was LOOSE. Talk about yourself!
Yea, so what if two of my closer friends are guys? So what if I eat with them at the same table, walk in between them, or attend classes with them?! At least I don't go to some ulu place and hide ourselves and talk till like what, 9PM?!
It's just that our schedules FIT and we are even in the same MATH CLASS with similar HOMEWORK! And that's all the contact we get. We don't even take SO much flucking time off just to hide in someplace and hang out with each other. We DON'T do that, unlike YOU. Lousy mousy person.
First the 6th, now the 7th. First HUGGING. Now what? Sitting up there where nobody else can find you with TWO girls, until 9pm! And what do you say on normal days to me? "OH... I have to go at 7pm LATEST. Then i'll be safe, coz I'm NOT supposed to be in school after 7..." Ha. Ha. I am so going to laugh that you actually stayed with them till 9pm. In a restricted, unaccessible to civilian area.
Then you think it's no big deal. "9 ONLY WHAT." Only? ONLY?! ONLY!?!? What the **** man. So I say, why not set up a tent, and a nice fire and bring along some food. Then stay overnight in the nice warm cosy tent, huddled close. 9 only what. Why not till 5am then?
And you tell them SO MUCH. And tell me so little. Yet you want still expect me to talk to you the way they do. And i wrote letters to you, only to hear you tell me, "They're all crap." And when I tried to deny it, you insisted that they were crap. And who was the smart butthole who said that if you don't eat the food, you're not respecting the person who cooked it. I wrote to you, and you ****ing say that it's just crap. One day I shall just stuff my weights down your butthole.
You also said that you're sick of me being so jealous. Then what about you? Just coz I played rock-scissors-paper with Aaron Tay, you must get so pissed? I'm not even spending the whole of my evening with him in an ulu area! And also, since when have you stayed up till 9 just for the fun of it, or for me? NIL. NEVER EVER. And who was the one who said, "I swear I didn't hug her [someone else] intentionally!" or that he felt that he has sinned against me by just doing that? You. And now you scale greater heights, and you asked someone else, another girl, to hug you. And literally, scale greater heights, to be with them. For the whole evening, actually, till NIGHT.
I tell you, if you do that ever again, to do ANYTHING that pisses me off this way, I am going to pull you from wherever you are, by your ears. And if you don't move, I'll yank your ear off. And if you think that you're ever-so-right in doing those kind of shit, I'll swipe your mouth off. Or I'll set my dog on you.
You just wanna be with me? Hah. I can see that you mean it. not.
And man, I feel so freaking bad for typing all these out on my blog but oh wells, if i don't i'll probably get much worse, and it may be possible for me to scream till my lungs kaboom or something, something that would injure me physically. That is what happens when all these pissed up feelings cause by err-hmm... build up in me and i get short circuited (or become kuku). I can get injured badly. Or cause someone else to be injured.
And yes, I would have said that I still love him. But no, not now, it just doesn't fit at this moment, you know. I feel so betrayed. That he actually acts like he treasures the other girls more than he treasures me. Or that he feels they're more worth his time than I am.
Sigh, enough la. I already trying to hold back my tears for now liao. And typing this part makes me feel like... It makes me feel worse, like I really don't want to type these stuff out, but I have no choice.
He doesn't want to listen to me, and he insists he's right all the time at times like this. Then when I try to get it to reach his mind, he just says I'm incoherent. That I'm wrong, that it's my fault and my bad for talking to him like that. Then he just totally don't listen to me anymore, and he logs off his msn. He isn't even giving himself a chance to understand my reactions to his actions. He assumes that what he's doing is good, and nothing wrong, because it makes him feel good, and to him it's right, so he think that it is how I think as well.
If you get sick of me being jealous over such matters, then tell me which girl likes her boyfriend going to some ulu place with other girls, without her? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend sacrificing more time for those other girls than he does with her? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend saying that the letters she wrote to him are crap? Which girlfriend is perfectly fine with her boyfriend always telling her how much better those other girls are?
Think about this, darling. And guys out there, seriously, spare a thought for your girlfriends before you do or say anything. Think, really, imagine if your girlfriend does that to you, then how would you feel? Will you ever listen to their thoughts? Or do you actually assume she would feel good about it just because you feel good?
How many tears are they shedding behind you? How many tears do they shed when you're there smiling to yourself? And do you know how much they want to be with you? Is it really right to do things like that for your own gains?
