Erm, yes, been thinking critically about past events.

One of which struck me quite hard because it wasn't supposed to happen, but just because of one person. One fucking sentence, it happened. And it affect us, me, the team. To have been putting in so much effort into brainstorming, planning, preparing, then doing it, just to find out...... Some idiots, because of one, destroyed it. Ruined it. Screwed it up.

Damn those idiots.

At that time, I never blamed that root cause. It didn't even occur to me that the person would be the root cause. Even went around convincing others that it was not that person's fault, but actually it was. Or maybe not directly at fault, coz the root cause wasn't the one (I believe) who had hands on screwing us up. But damn that.

Well, I thought about it again recently. Root cause (let's just call it RC for short) knew it would happen. RC knew. And RC went ahead with it. No, RC didn't care what would happen. RC just wanted it to happen for RC's own crapped aims in mind. RC could even neglect those closest to heart, didn't care. Didn't care what happens to them, what would they feel, how would they feel.

Only recently, I heard from RC, that those closest didn't mean anything special. When RC wants to screw everything up, friends, lovers, RC wouldn't give a shit.

Disappointed. That RC would do such stuff, say such stuff. RC knew how much it will hurt the others, but he wouldn't give a shit. He wouldn't. He didn't care.

I have no appetite anymore. Disgusted by those words.

Well, sure we tried to salvage the aftermath, and to a certain degree, we did.
We just wished the faggots who screwed our plans up get caught and get caned till their buttcheeks get raw.

RC refuses to help solve, and there's no other fucking way.

I will never do such cruel shit.