Jun Yup is still being the
he was since last night.......................
I so feel like inflicting real physical pain on myself to perhaps shift some of the pain in my heart somewhere else. I feel like putting my head in the fan. I feel like hitting my skull till it breaks. I feel like tearing a chunk of flesh off my arm. And I'm shivering, not from the cold, but from restricting myself from doing so.
Sigh, after this saga, after i can stand up to heal my own wounds, again by myself, I can then proceed to make those happy memories.
I just hope this will end tonight. Please, tonight.
And may I fall down and sprain/fracture my ankle tomorrow. Or get a joint injury.