What defines me
Just an emotion. That is what defines me.
What determines me.
Liked, only when I'm happy.
Disliked, when I'm sad, depressed, or upset.
Detested, when I'm angry.
I honestly couldn't find a worse way to define me as.
I am a human, damn it.
I have feelings, feelings that change.
For goodness sake.
Am I supposed to feel happy that I have no shoulder to cry on?
Am I supposed to feel happy that I am blamed for every single shit?
Am I supposed to feel happy that I care for you when you're troubled, yet you dislike me when I'm troubled?
Is that what I am to you?
Just an emotion?
I'm a person, damn it.
I desire care like any human does, especially when I am down.
I hate abandonment like any human does.
I feel lonely. I am scared.
Troubled.
And so I feel unhappy.
Is that abnormal?
What's more, you don't even bother to care when I'm troubled.
Don't even want to understand how I feel.
Everytime I tell you about what I feel,
all you know how to say is that I AM HURTING YOU.
What about you? Are you hurting me through your actions?
Do I not deserve any care, any concern?
Everytime, I cry to myself. Comfort myself when I'm down.
Yet you. You still say that I'm hurting you.
I gave you a hug. You pushed me away.
If I was being aggressive, then what about the things you say to me,
the things you do to me,
whenever you feel angry?
You ask me to go away. Block me from msn.
Blame it on me.
Insist I'm hurting you. Call me names. Insult me. Look down on me.
And I'M SUPPOSED TO FEEL HAPPY ABOUT THESE?!?!
