I chose to like him. Chose to believe he won't hurt me.

Well, I don't want to get hurt again the same way I was. If I'm not wrong, he is going to continue in that way. At least, this is different. Just that, I would not care anymore. I have my support group, my friends, and the people that like me, believe in something that I do. Well, not really what I believe in, but it's something that I would like to believe.

Relief comes really quick nowadays. As long as I have him around, it's fine. Because I know I won't get hurt, at least, not by him. It's good to be able to trust in someone and it actually works, get what I mean? Starting next week, one more day has been robbed from me. Thursday! I won't be able to go home with him on Thursday acknowledges my presence.

Another point is that, I don't really do anything there. The thing about gongs... they're just so NOT portable. They're like, the heaviest stuff to carry around and nobody puts them back the right way after shifting. Going there is like, doing nothing except giving the damned wolf an opportunity to flaunt his little tigress. Can't even be bothered about those two anymore. It's really annoying to hear him flaunt because he makes it sound so vulgar.

I don't really think that Tigress is all that worth it. Some people just become so blind after awhile. Only the very few realise it soon enough to get out of it.

Anyway, I make it sound all so lovey-dovey all the time. Liking someone doesn't necessarily mean they gotta like you back. And I don't really mind now that he doesn't like me in that way or whatever. I'm just glad that he lets me be such a close friend and acknowledges me. Glad that he lets me do things for him, but never fails to thank me in his own special way. The way he waves at me. The way he waves at me when I get off the train. The way he would talk whenever we're around. The way he smiles.

A few months left. How I wished that time would never come. Then I could continue to see him every weekday. =) Yet, for my own selfish reason, I hope it'd come soon. The ONLY reason being I would finally be away from another him... And I can really leave my past behind me. Stop having the bugs nibble at me.

Prom is another thing to look forward to (or not). I just want Ty. Just. Want. TY! Sigh. But what are the odds... Unless things change somewhere between now and then.

Tioman. Ah. I totally gotta say something about that here. It's going to be fun. Currently have 12 people, and what I need is for ALL of them to confirm. After that I need a letter to the parents, some meetings with the group to confirm their expectations and activites, money to be transferred to Dad's account, and then I'm done. We're alright and good to go.

I hope I get to go out during the June holidays too. I don't want to be stuck at home. Can someone pack my schedule with outings please?

Oh, yes, there's APs and exams to worry about now. GOSH!!! Sobs. I want my time.

And how I wished I can have more together time. Zeds.