Come to think about it, it was a replay of what happened more than 10 years ago, isn't it?

Remember when I attacked a classmate when I was 5 or 6... In my preschool years I was always bullied, tortured by name calling, teasing, being exiled... Cried almost every day. Then after a couple years of tolerating these, something happened. There was once I couldn't undo the button of my uniform for bath time, so this girl started teasing me, calling me names, and mocking me loudly. Eventually, I got pushed to the last for bath time, with the teacher scolding me. Then this girl's laughing couldn't stop even after I told her to shut up.

So what happened?

I scratched her. Slashed her right across her face. It was so bad that if she decided to scratch her wound after scabs form, there would be a scar.

Got into trouble like that. Teacher called my parents, who didn't really scold me but sternly told me that I was wrong because I attacked her first. Teachers told me that they would put me in a box in the store room if I ever did such stuff again.

I dun understand why physically attacking someone like that would be a crime, but years of mental torture and verbal abuse is not wrong. Like, why is calling someone a 'bitch' acceptable, but slapping someone across the face is wrong? And like, why is it that stealing items from someone if wrong, but stealing people's girl/boyfriend is not wrong?

Was I wrong?

Maybe that's where I got my tolerance from. As of that moment there, I knew that my strength came from my anger. Or rather, from tolerating something for a long time. So I always try not to resort to any form of violence for anything.

Until like, recently. Even so, I already warned him.

And no, I am not wrong in that sense. I attacked because I had enough of his rudeness. I WARNED HIM.

Him attacking me twice was the wrong thing.

Oh, speaking about names and name-calling... Jun Yup used to call me a few crude names like Bitch, Slut, Whore, Cheap, and Harlot... All about me being some loose person and some sick stuff. Talk about him calling me that. Who was the one who got hooked up after less than a week? *WONDERS SARCASTICALLY* Who's the loooooooooose one? And even went deeper than that? Hmm..... Cass wonders. You should too!