I have been watching Twilight! And reading the book. I watched it once yesterday, and again today! Lol, I can never get sick of it. Haha~ If Celine reads this she will definitely think I'm crazy.

Today has been a weird day, with nothing to do. I managed to play Maple Leaf Rag page 1 though, which made me happy enough.

Damn, I really suck at certain things. Or should I say, a lot of things. In fact, I don't think I am good at anything at all. It's like there's nothing I can be proud of.

Let's just say I DID have something I was good at, but then, someone totally destroyed it.

Congrats, Cass. Just your damned luck. [What luck?]

Then again, all that I am capable of doing now is to hide behind someone when I'm scared, and in turn allow that person to hide behind me when the need arises. Someone I can share with? But it is nice to have someone that close. Perhaps that's because I know he won't hurt me.

Takes so much effort to stop myself from doing what I really want to do. Simply because I know it isn't the best thing to do. When anything changes, there is a higher chance things might go wrong and... that's what I'm afraid of. Things going wrong, things screwing up.

It's like you standing still for a moment, and you see these fireflies around you. The things that you can be happy with. But when you reach out to grasp it, everything disappears. And once again, you're left in the darkness.

Sad, huh?