Sem 1 is over! Wow, that's actually sort of fast. Especially now that it I am year 6 and time just slips through my fingers.

I can be very sure right now that the most changes are taking place in my life. The challenging thing is that we have now reached the toughest fork roads in our lives. So many forks, and so many endpoints. It is also a time in my life where I am most unsure about what is going to happen next, and indecision is just kicking in as the seconds tick by.

I have partially given up on Medicine and aiming for the other sciences instead, which is because I screwed up my high school life at the start. I probably will find it very difficult to make it into NUS Medicine.

There're many things to talk about here now, since I haven't blogged in a very long time. I have been thinking of vlogging, but I guess that will take up more time. But with regards to videos, I have come up with a theme, if I ever do a video, 'Living in a HD world'.

'Living in a HD world' will be about myopic people. I had this inspiration when I took off my spectacles for cleaning, then putting them back on and realizing that everything looks so sharp and clear. And yea, I was wearing my full astigmatism correction spectacles.

This sem had been fun, except for English. I have a decent CAP this sem because English wasn't included.

But oh wells, things have been going just fine nowadays.

Started being really serious about studies and futures. It is at least good now that I am seriously thinking about the future. I guess there are certain things that I have to sacrifice, and that may be the reason why I am so passive in certain other areas.

I really want a different future for myself. Something so different from the rest of my extended family that they will never see me as 'just a relative', but someone they can be proud of. I want to prove to myself and to others that I can do it, that I can work hard to have the future I want.

Which is why I want to study out of this country. I want to study hard and work hard and play hard as well. I don't want to be just average, I want to be good in something, and I want to have something I can proudly tell others about that I will never be wrong about.

I also want my parents to trust me and just give a little more for me, and I want to believe that one day I will prove to them that their investment has not been wasted. I wish they would enable me to do what I want for my future right now. It is so difficult to convince them to be more far-sighted, to believe that I can go far.

I want a different lifestyle. I don't want things to be the same day after day, because deep inside me I know that things can change for the better.

My extended family are a very boring bunch. Nobody is overseas, nobody has anything to flaunt about. I want to change that. I want to give them something they can be different about.

I want to reach higher. Fly higher.