Seriously!
Everywhere I walk in Maplestory, I see people who are like so much higher level than I am. Or actually most of them are like, above level 50, some even level 90! Man, how do they ever achieve that?
I am level 40 right now, and I'm already training my ass off. Yeah, some people might want to say 'Hey, you're training at the wrong place!' Okay, maybe I am training at the wrong place, but it definitely is still a lot of work getting to such high levels!
When I see someone whose level is low, like, much lower than mine… They probably just started playing, or that isn't their main character. But WHADD?! My main character is only level 40!
They're really hardcore players who play for like 18 hours straight or something la.
Oh another thing is the cash shop. 10,000 a-cash costs $10.70 (according to Theo), that's like so expensive can?! Not only that, the items in their cash shop expire after awhile, and they cost a lot! Changing a hair style in maple almost costs 10,00 a-cash! Well, at least the change is forever.
Theo has bought like, 3 cards already. That is scary la!
On a cooler side, I got invited to a guild yesterday! Thanks yeeru! Was ring mule-ing for yeeru and friends. I feel so bad now that I charge them so much! T.T But theo say must, so… yea.
Did a little bit of research on people today. Quite interesting.
And last night I had to whip out my diary to write this whole passage about my passions, until I got really sleepy. This is all because I needed to relief a little of the ***centric-ness in me. I just kept writing and writing.
Poor Cass!
I am going to write the same old thing again: I wished my life was better!
And I do indeed wished my life isn't as screwed up. Childhood was screwed up (though not as badly as those who had family problems then), but yes, as a person the experiences whacked me really hard. I still remember the pain of it all.
And perhaps that is why I am so numb right now. And so scared of doing things sometimes.
I feel like my parents are hindering me from life's greatest opportunities.
Mum first, then. She doesn't know anything about the world and its trends, but she knows the news well. The thing about the news she remembers the best is news about people dying, or people getting pregnant, and those negative stuff. Then she comes and tells me, all the time, about these cases, which she then bans me from doing, or anything related to them. She totally dislikes me going out, or making new friends (I'm supposed to report everyone I know who are not in my school, so I gave up on making outside friends). And she speaks as if every single horrible bad thing will happen 99% of the time! Like, what?! There are so many things going on out there, and if one goes wrong, everything else is wrong then?
Then there's Dad too. He slapped me once and I never quite loved him the same. I don't really trust him anymore. He's such a slacker at home, not doing any chores at all, and messing up the house. Complains about anything wrong. Last time he used to nag at me for every single thing, and criticizing every single thing I eat. And now, he eats and eats junk food, sweet stuff, soft drinks, and he snaps at us if we remind him he is eating unhealthily. I got so pissed yesterday because he said that when I have long hair I look like a fish that is going to die very soon, that I'm lifeless, that I'm going to die but I'm not dying. SCREW OFF! You may be my Dad, but I have feelings too okay! You so unhappy with me then go get another girl to call you own. Oh, and Dad knows almost nothing about trends and the outside world.
He doesn't even know how to wear stuff decently. And when we eat at a restaurant (not those posh ones, I'll be ashamed.), he wears shorts and slippers. Like, wth? I wear something more decent already and I think I'm underdressed, and he can just stroll into the restaurant wearing shorts and slippers?! I think I shall faint.
And that is why I never dress up nicely. Well, my mum forces stuff on me and claim that I look good in certain stuff. But to be honest, I look at myself in the mirror and think 'Yea, by auntie standards.'
I want to break free of this annoying cycle, you know!!!
Waiting for me love~