I have just finished the most tedious video I've ever made, but I'm not going to be releasing it until after my Tioman trip.

Some updates from Cass…

Love life?

Alright… About this matter, I'm still at a loss. I don't really know what to do, and the next thing to look forward to is the Tioman trip, and the birthday. Maybe it's the holidays. The holidays make everybody so distant, and that's how I feel right now. The only online game I'm playing right now is MapleStory, and even so, it isn't much relaxing at times.

Not because I'm quite low level and always in danger of dying. It's coz someone keeps using the buddy channel to talk to someone else. Obviously I hear what he says to another person and it isn't nice at all. Makes me annoyed sometimes. But deep down, I know that it isn't that way. It's just… how I feel, okay?

And that was what happened today! After stressing out over my video, I decided to take a break to play maple – Thinking that it would be more cheerful and all. Hell no! Whatever pisses me off happened again. Sheesh. But I continued playing anyway.

Maple

I created a Knights of Cygnus character. It's a night walker. In some ways it's better than my Cleric, coz it has more HP, however, less MP. And the MP drains really fast, so it's some meso leech coz the potions are so expensive after awhile.

Activities

I don't really have any activities nowadays. I'm aiming to finish all my work next week, before leaving for Tioman. I don't really want to do English homework because… CMON LA! Since when do we have such holiday homework wan?! I hate the English department can? Why must so extra do year-long module… then make us do crap during our hard-earned holidays… And why does the principal even allow year-long modules? This is so damn unfair leh!!

But my other works are… To finish 3 writeups for the photo contest thing, as well as to write my college application essays. Hell. So much typing to do!

My hopes

I hope that I can be happier. I hope that things will go my way more willingly, and make me happier. Much happier than I was in the past, or even now. I want a brighter future.

But you know… Nowadays I'm more able to control how I feel. Hmm,m ore of I'm aware ba. And I have methods to channel emotions somewhere else. Like, I will feel that way, but I won't act that way. Yep. Is that good or bad?