Life has been facing a little mudslide nowadays.

My days have been filled with both sadness and happiness. The funny thing is, there were so many things that made me happy, and only one that could make me sad. Yet, I am sadder than I am happy.

Today I read The Little Prince, and I really liked the story. It opened my mind to a few concepts that really made sense- About the people in this world, and how everybody has no real goal yet are rushing all the time.

Slow down.

Yes, I think we all should stop and reflect on our lives and on the people around us, just for a little moment.

People who make me wait all the time makes me sad; so do people who ignore me. People who stop to gather help from me, yet never stopped when I required their help. Oh wells.

Sometimes I put in effort to work for something that I really want. Yet, I am greeted with failure, a dead end.

Seeing a smile makes me happy. But so close, yet so far. What if the smile isn't meant to be for me?

I want to thank those who have stopped to listen, to lend me a ear, or a shoulder.

Thank a friend long lost, now found. You know who you are.

I used to think that being able to handle failure and rejection is always something good. I am now feeling the impact of those buried emotions, those disappointments. And now, no, it isn't good at all. I am now so used to not getting the best, not getting what I deserve. I sink deeper into disappointments that fill my life.

That makes me screw up.

Because people step over me.

I want to rise again, to be someone who can get what she deserves. For putting in that much effort, I get that much reward. I know I do put in effort.

Just because life is unfair, I don't always have to be on the unfair side of things.