People tend to let you rub their bellies when they are in need of a sense of comfort; But they claw at you when you seek them to give you a little comfort.

Yes, he tends to forget that unlike those friends of his, I actually did help him in times of need. What do I receive in turn? A shower of words like spears through my heart. And to know that I have been continuously replaced.

Last on the list, but too good for the boards.

Oh well.

Leopards don't change their spots, do they?

I'm seriously quite tired of roaming, and not having someone to go home to. Yes, I have found small shelters here and there, but I cannot stay there for long. And when it rains, I still get cold, and I still get wet.

All I want is a warm home that loves me being there.

Let's just say I've found such a house, but do not have the keys to it. They're missing, for some odd reason. And to me, that's the only house I want.

It's taking a toll on me.

And yesterday I met with a hurricane that mercilessly attacked me. I thought I was at least in a decent bit of shelter. After all, I used to do a little fixing here and there.

Today, I doused myself in whatever kindness Ty has shown me. It was a good feeling. After being so freaking upset last night, he was just like sanctuary. I know he won't hurt me, and thus can let my guard down without fear.

I'd do almost anything for him. Almost anything.

I just wished he could have a little more self confidence and give life a little risk factor?

Sigh. His love shall be my blanket.