I have been playing Maple these few days. Also, being busy with school work and rest.

I think it's really tough to be caught in between two emotions most of the time. Not only is it tough, it drains a lot of energy. I still have to factor in the energy I spend trying to figure out which emotion I should lean more towards.

Ever knew something very important yet you cannot tell anyone about it? Yes, that's how it is now. It has been so for a long time now, but I cannot say. Because I don't want to harm anyone. So here I am now, being underestimated. Shoved around like some worthless maggot.

Why is it that people who don't put in effort into a friendship gets to be closer to someone? Yet the others who do their very best to maintain friendships get kicked around and receive less from the other party?

No, it's not only me. I see it all around me. The ones who should get more, always get less.

I feel for them.

I know how much that hurts.

I want a friend who answers my questions. =(

Sadly the only one who could do so, doesn't do it anymore.

I hate being the one who almost made it to the top but is never the top.

Stupid person. Of course after whatever I've done you still refuse to cherish the friendship.

People who never did that much always are more important to you.

All you do is make me cry when you could make me smile.

No.

Others could make me happy. You make it last, because it is a form of reassurance nobody would understand except us.

Stupid stupid person. Why do you do this?