Have you ever been so overcome with emotions and lethargy that when you wipe a drop of liquid off your face, you don't know if it is perspiration or tears?
Well, I can't actually imagine that, but never mind.
I always try to think of something to write about so that I can get my mind of certain troubling issues, or things that make me feel helpless. But right now, I can't think of any because I'm currently wondering if I should continue hoping or just close my eyes and let things move the way they should.
What I want and like most probably isn't what is going to happen, so I'm quite sad about that. Unless.... someone is willing to take part in a miracle and make me the happiest person on Earth for the duration of the whole thing.
I guess I should accept that I'm bound to be lonely, at least for now.
Daddy bought me those pieces of electronics and gadgets for a reason.
That is to say, you're going to be alone for a long while, so... while everybody can have their fun with others, nobody needs you, so be good now, sit down, and play with whatever toys you have.
If you need more toys, daddy buys them for you alright? Just don't expect anyone to play them with you.
Crap, I'm feeling suicidal.
Okay, I'm not. I don't do razors or knives.
All I want is some love, is that too much to ask for?
