I'm back to blogging here, been so long since the last post?

Looking for a job now, and I am really pissed with the world right now for the ignorance. Sometimes.

Primary 6 gathering was quite fun. I'm pretty glad they don't see me as the can-bully-person anymore, like I used to be. I think most of them don't know that my primary school days were a nightmare. But now that it's over, I guess as adults now we will learn to respect each other more.

I keep telling myself that it's okay that he's left. Not say left, left... But not in the same channel anymore now that he's in NS. Sometimes, it's okay when I don't think about him too much, and I want to let it go. But when I start thinking about him, it's like a part of me don't want to let it go.

What the shit lahs.

Can't things be as easy as let's just take the opportunity and see where it goes?

Urgh. Feel so awful right now. And so alone.
But yes Gel, I know you're there.
It's just I don't know what to do.

I let myself waste a year of my life, even when I knew I was wasting it.
And I wasted the 18th year of my life...
Supposedly the year where everyone is supposed to live it up!

But then again, I already tried my best in not wasting that year.
Compared to my other peers, I don't have national exams... Why am I not living it up!
And no matter what I did, I reflected, was supposed to give me at least something.
I ended up with nothing.

I love being in NUS High School.
But I'm happy I graduated too.
I just don't want to waste the year.

Sigh.

Life sucks.