I feel like such an inanimate object right now.

Yesterday, was requested to stay till 4pm, and she turned up at 5pm.
Today, she request me to stay till freaking 6pm!

What's more suay, one of the staff took MC today, so it's a really tough thing to do.
It's not that I can't stay, it's that I'm not supposed to stay! Yes, I still get paid, but it's about doing something fair to me.

Her excuse was that some Dr wanted her to stay till 6pm, and that she is also waiting for a delivery to come in. One thing I learnt about excuses, if it's genuine, then only ONE reason is sufficient. You don't have to keep coming up with shitloads of excuses.

But let's just assume that it's true. So a doctor wants you to stay then you stay? Other people then don't need to care la? Sengkang branch die also not your business? I tired like shit also not your business? Some more, the deal was 4pm, always. You're always late, how is that fair to me? Now somebody want you to stay then you stay! I bet other staff can handle things as well, THIS branch is the busiest branch, ok?

And is a delivery more important than a human? More important than me? You can just ask someone else to accept the delivery or something. Pass a message on. If you stay to wait for a delivery, then I need to go home to wait for a call lorh!

I freaking hate this lateness.

Fortunately, the person who took leave is coming back tomorrow, so I don't need to wait for this person before I go home anymore. except for Friday. Shit Friday.

I don't get why anyone should be late for work. Maybe one or two minutes, fine. But for 15 minutes over? Seriously?

Urgh. So screwy.

So anyway, I didn't stay till 6pm. Senior chased me home, told me to just let them die if they can't handle. Anyway, there was still her to help. So I got to go home early. Aiyah, she say 6pm, will be here at 6.30pm de la! Stupid. Freaking tired like shit can!!!

I realised that I'm the sort of person who will screw up badly in the initial stages, and get very good in the long run. Too bad society is too short-sighted. My clinic had enough faith in me to keep me, and now they have a good staff on the team.

So what if my results sucked for let's say... Chem equilibrium? I can do it fine right now. And if you were to ask me to take the exam again, different paper, I bet I can do loads better than my results then.

But it's no use. The grade is already printed on paper. And no matter how good the reamarks for the module are... The grade is still too sucky for people to see through that I can no troubles with it now.

The society should get glasses!

Ah, whatever. I don't die that easily. Things that happen are sufficient to hurt me, not enough to kill me. I survived 9 childhood years of perseverance, 2 years of drilling it into me as a value in life, and then the next few years putting it to the test.

I am able to withstand so much that some people use me as a shield. When people know I try the best for them, they end up using me. For all sorts of reasons. Always been the one who can tahan a lot, but never one that shines.

I know as a human we can't take blows all the time and still remain standing. There's a limit. Everytime I hit mine, it just keeps growing. But I also need someone to be my shield.

That's what I mean.