I can't bring myself to forget about you. I can't bring myself to walk away, turn away and not look back. I can't.

The most painful truth is that you aren't going to return. Even if you did, it wouldn't be for me. You have your own life and I know you are never going to include me in it.

I still remember those times when you were the only one who didn't forget about me and leave me behind. I remember that time when I took you in when everyone forgot about you. What about you finally giving me a title I wanted? Perhaps it was just a lie. But those memories are definitely real.

The way I felt about you. Definitely real. The best thing for me to do now is to leave you alone before I get more hurt. All you heard from me was an 'I really like you'. But it wasn't sufficient to describe what I felt about you.

I still continue to do so, but I don't act on them anymore. It makes me feel trapped, but anything for you. If you detest me, I will stay away. Indeed I am trapped. Waiting foolishly for you to return. I know you won't.

I should be happy. Even if an online friend isn't real, the person on the other side is. A person is loving and caring for me while I am online. I should be happy.

Dang. I still can't do it. It's as if the only solution was for you to come back.