Stand up.
I know why my previous post is so sadd! That post was post no. 444~!
Woohoo, this thing is so old now I am so proud of myself for keeping it alive. I used to change addresses everytime I felt I needed a change. But now, I find myself staying strong. To be brave to fact the past, let myself know it is there, but move on anyway.
So I got rejected from SCMC. No big deal. Did I try? Yes. Did I fail? Yes. And am I standing up still? YES.
Am I going to try again? Yes. No big deal if I fail. I tried my best and that is what matters.
Disappointment now is a small price to pay for the regret I am going to feel next time. How I didn't fight hard enough for what I want.
Cass is a strong girl. Whose limits are set by herself (and the laws of physics). I am going to stand up after every fall. For those who have helped me stand up again, thank you all very much for your love.
I hear an awesome song by DaveDays today. It's called 'Olive You'. And it somehow describes how I feel recently. I like the concept of Olive you. Say it a few times, and it really sounds like another phrase. And that is the whole point of the song. It is about getting those words out.
Olive you.
Olive you, senpai. Getit? =)
Today was another day of waste. Time and money. I wished I could do something more with my time. Instead of travelling to and fro Sengkang and PGP. I somehow feel like I have already wasted time travelling since 4 years ago. I always don't feel like doing work at home.
Anyway talking about cheer. I'm feeling a little stressed regarding that. Nothing about the time of the CCA. Just that they are proceeding too damn fast, and I always feel like I can't do it. My ankle is hurt and I push myself on because everyone is going so fast. If I miss just one day, I miss so much.
I don't want to be pulling the team down. Yet with my ankle, I can't. If I skip, I lag. If I don't, my ankle takes a freaking long time to heal. Don't know what to do, so stressed.
Woohoo, this thing is so old now I am so proud of myself for keeping it alive. I used to change addresses everytime I felt I needed a change. But now, I find myself staying strong. To be brave to fact the past, let myself know it is there, but move on anyway.
So I got rejected from SCMC. No big deal. Did I try? Yes. Did I fail? Yes. And am I standing up still? YES.
Am I going to try again? Yes. No big deal if I fail. I tried my best and that is what matters.
Disappointment now is a small price to pay for the regret I am going to feel next time. How I didn't fight hard enough for what I want.
Cass is a strong girl. Whose limits are set by herself (and the laws of physics). I am going to stand up after every fall. For those who have helped me stand up again, thank you all very much for your love.
I hear an awesome song by DaveDays today. It's called 'Olive You'. And it somehow describes how I feel recently. I like the concept of Olive you. Say it a few times, and it really sounds like another phrase. And that is the whole point of the song. It is about getting those words out.
Olive you.
Olive you, senpai. Getit? =)
Today was another day of waste. Time and money. I wished I could do something more with my time. Instead of travelling to and fro Sengkang and PGP. I somehow feel like I have already wasted time travelling since 4 years ago. I always don't feel like doing work at home.
Anyway talking about cheer. I'm feeling a little stressed regarding that. Nothing about the time of the CCA. Just that they are proceeding too damn fast, and I always feel like I can't do it. My ankle is hurt and I push myself on because everyone is going so fast. If I miss just one day, I miss so much.
I don't want to be pulling the team down. Yet with my ankle, I can't. If I skip, I lag. If I don't, my ankle takes a freaking long time to heal. Don't know what to do, so stressed.
