I can see how much and how far I can go to chase my dreams. Currently, I do not know how big it is going to get, but I did set a goal for myself.

A dream that I can chase.

I have failed once, and now I am given another chance. And in these dire situations, my failure really scares me shitless and I am really putting in a lot more effort. It is time for co-option, and I am back for another chance to be part of the MC. And I really put in an effort to read and memorise and visualize and plan my answers and everything.

So I really hope I can make it this time.

Anyway, today was enjoyable, I guess. It's tomorrow I'm scared of. However, with all enjoyable days, something annoying will come and screw it up.

So my mum called and asked me for the 6th time if I'm coming home this weekend. And for the 6th time, I told her no.

She then said she wanted to eat at Sakura for my birthday during recess week, and asked me when it is. Since I wasn't near any calendar, i just told her, the week after next.
She insisted I give her the exact dates. INSISTED.
And she is at home, holding a cordless phone, and there are calendars ALL OVER the house. She couldn't even be bothered to get off her butt, walk to the nearest calendar at most 7 steps away, to see when it will be. I, who am in a rush to meet my friend and not near any calendar, has to tell her the date.

And I had to tell her I'd call her back later to inform her of the dates. And she said OK.

She couldn't be more sincere about meeting me after 2 weeks of not seeing her only daughter.

Seriously.

As a random note, even my phone got pissed. The touch screen was screwy after my mum's call and i couldn't unlock it, which means that i can't answer any calls. Yes, it was that bad. But my phone is alright now, anyway.