What a day
Today was a super busy day. It was a mixture of feelings.
Did decorations for an entire day, and I was particularly proud of my Oreo board. Of course, Welfare's decorations were awesome, and I'm not at all surprised as I knew they were capable to making things awesome. I spent the day folding a spider, which i sucked at, and did various banners, and also wash paint off toilet bowls and sinks. The toilet bowl I washed was stinky because there was faeces at the side of it and I had to smell it the entire time until the paint was completely gone from the bowl. Darn it la... Also, almost got into trouble because they tried to wash paint off using petrol from KW's bike. And the entire students hub smelt like petrol.
Went back quite late.
The first part of the day was good, started off with having very light-hearted chats with people. I was extremely pleased at the way it was alright the way I was communicating with a particular person. The top5 came to help welfare fold paper spiders, and they did a really great job.
So I was happy at that part.
In the end, I felt so alone.
To be really honest, I really missed those days when there was always always someone I could talk to. To put it bluntly, those days I had a boyfriend, putting all fake love aside. Even if I was happy, there's nobody I can share it with. If I was sad, there is still nobody I can share it with. And I might be surrounded by the best friends ever, but none of them have me as priority. It's the way it is!
Most days I feel so emotionally constipated, I don't know who I should share my thoughts with. I don't even know if anyone respected my experiences.
Maybe I'm just insecure. Maybe I genuinely feel lonely. Hmm. I do make people smile, but I also need people to want me to smile instead of assuming that I'm smiley all the time.
Oh wells. I guess I have to keep waiting.
I really think I stopped looking. It's darn depressing to be looking and yet not finding anything. Someday, the chosen person will step up and then it shall be destined that we meet. On that, I hope the bad luck streak breaks.
Damn it with bad lucks.
WHATEVER SIAL! I am just feelin' so horrible inside right now I wanna cry! REALLY!
On a lighter note, I had a good 30 minutes watching my hamster today. It jumps all around, from one place to another inside its tank. So cute! And coz of that, I decided to name him Maki. Maki for something like, roll or spin or circle or something along those lines.
Maki <3
Did decorations for an entire day, and I was particularly proud of my Oreo board. Of course, Welfare's decorations were awesome, and I'm not at all surprised as I knew they were capable to making things awesome. I spent the day folding a spider, which i sucked at, and did various banners, and also wash paint off toilet bowls and sinks. The toilet bowl I washed was stinky because there was faeces at the side of it and I had to smell it the entire time until the paint was completely gone from the bowl. Darn it la... Also, almost got into trouble because they tried to wash paint off using petrol from KW's bike. And the entire students hub smelt like petrol.
Went back quite late.
The first part of the day was good, started off with having very light-hearted chats with people. I was extremely pleased at the way it was alright the way I was communicating with a particular person. The top5 came to help welfare fold paper spiders, and they did a really great job.
So I was happy at that part.
In the end, I felt so alone.
To be really honest, I really missed those days when there was always always someone I could talk to. To put it bluntly, those days I had a boyfriend, putting all fake love aside. Even if I was happy, there's nobody I can share it with. If I was sad, there is still nobody I can share it with. And I might be surrounded by the best friends ever, but none of them have me as priority. It's the way it is!
Most days I feel so emotionally constipated, I don't know who I should share my thoughts with. I don't even know if anyone respected my experiences.
Maybe I'm just insecure. Maybe I genuinely feel lonely. Hmm. I do make people smile, but I also need people to want me to smile instead of assuming that I'm smiley all the time.
Oh wells. I guess I have to keep waiting.
I really think I stopped looking. It's darn depressing to be looking and yet not finding anything. Someday, the chosen person will step up and then it shall be destined that we meet. On that, I hope the bad luck streak breaks.
Damn it with bad lucks.
WHATEVER SIAL! I am just feelin' so horrible inside right now I wanna cry! REALLY!
On a lighter note, I had a good 30 minutes watching my hamster today. It jumps all around, from one place to another inside its tank. So cute! And coz of that, I decided to name him Maki. Maki for something like, roll or spin or circle or something along those lines.
Maki <3
