Emo ttm...
Returned from Cambodia/Bangkok less than a week ago...
So I'm kind of tired coz I am just done with 3 days of SCamp Prep Camp...
Not only that I'm tired coz of the shit that has been revolving around me these few days.
Because when I see things start rolling downhill, I can't help but run after them to get them back.
But the thing is, I can't make everyone happy.
It's tough when each side wants a piece of me. It's tougher when one side can't see why there can be a point where both sides can meet.
It's tough when you have to choose a side and both are equally as loved and cherished and deserving.
From what I see, time is like the sand in an hourglass, and it's running really low.
I am afraid of what's going to happen after the sand runs out.
For now, I just want to see each grain of sand being used to its full potential.
When there is just so little time to play and laugh and enjoy each other's company just like we did back then..
When there is still time to be together..
I don't want to be a part of that forgotten memory. I don't want to see that happen, and I will hold on to it as long as I can.
You have to try.
I am afraid of being pushed back into the darkness where I have found light.
Saw a hope, then to lose it to something else.
I want to be happy, happier.
Want to feel important, want to feel loved.
And to those who have led me to my light, I will forever be grateful...
You have saved me from pain, loved me, and cherished me.
And I hope I will be able to do the same for you, except maybe in a different way...
But I don't understand why I am always doing things wrong.
I feel like whatever I do I am still going to upset someone.
As it was in the past, I never get to forgive myself.
Just hope that people will understand...
I have reasons for the things I do.
I am rational, and I weigh my options.
Why do you still get angry with me for doing what I do?
Why, why, why...
I always wonder.
I believe, when I get this all sorted out,
I will cease to exist.
That's why, the world is always in chaos and confusion.
The last part doesn't link. But never mind.
Sigh.
I'm just sad.
So I'm kind of tired coz I am just done with 3 days of SCamp Prep Camp...
Not only that I'm tired coz of the shit that has been revolving around me these few days.
Because when I see things start rolling downhill, I can't help but run after them to get them back.
But the thing is, I can't make everyone happy.
It's tough when each side wants a piece of me. It's tougher when one side can't see why there can be a point where both sides can meet.
It's tough when you have to choose a side and both are equally as loved and cherished and deserving.
From what I see, time is like the sand in an hourglass, and it's running really low.
I am afraid of what's going to happen after the sand runs out.
For now, I just want to see each grain of sand being used to its full potential.
When there is just so little time to play and laugh and enjoy each other's company just like we did back then..
When there is still time to be together..
I don't want to be a part of that forgotten memory. I don't want to see that happen, and I will hold on to it as long as I can.
You have to try.
I am afraid of being pushed back into the darkness where I have found light.
Saw a hope, then to lose it to something else.
I want to be happy, happier.
Want to feel important, want to feel loved.
And to those who have led me to my light, I will forever be grateful...
You have saved me from pain, loved me, and cherished me.
And I hope I will be able to do the same for you, except maybe in a different way...
But I don't understand why I am always doing things wrong.
I feel like whatever I do I am still going to upset someone.
As it was in the past, I never get to forgive myself.
Just hope that people will understand...
I have reasons for the things I do.
I am rational, and I weigh my options.
Why do you still get angry with me for doing what I do?
Why, why, why...
I always wonder.
I believe, when I get this all sorted out,
I will cease to exist.
That's why, the world is always in chaos and confusion.
The last part doesn't link. But never mind.
Sigh.
I'm just sad.
