Sometimes I read about people posting certain videos, or stories, and then the readers/viewers say that it is so touching it will move them to tears. But when I watch or read them, I rarely rarely have my tear ducts activated.

So I wonder, WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME?! I probably am broken. Yea. I blame my past. Not being a broken recorder but really, I blame it all on my past. No kid my age should go through such traumatizing times, seriously. Argh.

Perhaps I've been through so much that my tear ducts have 'hardened' to external stimulations. Kinda think that these things are not worth shedding tears for, since there have been more serious situations that tears had been shed for.

No, I only cry for the moments where the people I love stab me where it hurts the most. As a kid, I have tasted the bitterness of betrayal, and it's truly something I don't want to go through again.

If I could change the past, I would... have just wished for caring hands instead of hands that cane. (: I don't blame myself for my past.

Yeaps.

Many times I feel sad coz I feel very unaccomplished. Kinda feel like doing my best in everything but I shy back sometimes coz I feel unappreciated luh. Which then in turn makes people think I'm incapable. But I don't blame them ba, generally. So I only go where I am needed, where people are willing to trust me to do my work.

Yeap.

Tired now sia...