Just finished with the main bulk of my event, so I took the time to rest and recover today.

In any case, the bf is half-complaining how I always sound so emo and depressed on this blog so I shall make an effort to talk about some happy stuffs this time. But I have a need to vent my frustrations here so... Too bad. He also mentions how it's interesting to look at emo ppl and he will just go, 'Oh well...' Kinda weird but whatever.

Not going home this weekend.

Yesterday I went over to Leonard's Hall, which is ridiculous coz it's like at the end of the world. Put it this way, if we were to be flooded and drowned by an apocalyptic wave, that place would still be standing coz it is TOO well hidden from the rest of the world. Okay. Maybe not that epic.

So I spent the entire last night and today with him. Kinda mixed feelings. I really want to enjoy the limited time I have with him. It makes me happy just to see him, happier to be hanging around him, and very happy to be able to spend time with him like that.
But it gets a little awkward when I get down to thinking that hey, this is going to be what it's like for the next 4-freaking years.

It's such a long time to be thinking about. And all I tell myself is OhmyOhmy.. jiayou.

So although I'm kept in pretty good mood today, I'm still in general quite displease with my life and how it's turning out la.

Maybe because I'm tired by all the crap I have to do, and will have to do in the near future, or the future. Shit, I just realize I'm going to be displeased with the rest of my life. Good job to myself. -_-

ARGH! Okay okay okay... What I want is just a whole change of circumstances. I have what I want already, so I just wished that situations can change. But I don't think it's going to change.
What I'm wishing for is as good as a miracle, or one that will never happen. I might as well not wish, but I can't help but wish coz...
Ya, I don't want to live my life like that ba.