For once. The long anticipated day - Today... IS SCREWED UP.
Seriously, I can never have a day where it won't screw up. Especially one that I've waited too long for and truly deserved the day.

I have no idea why. All I've been waiting for this whole vacation is today. Where there won't be anymore external committments for him. And today was supposed to be THE DAY where it belonged to me, and me only. I was promised that. Many, multiple, times. In the end, it just ended like that.

I spent most of my day sleeping. He spent most of the day doing video.

What is supposed to be my day turned out to be... yea. Not my day.

Apart from the fact that we ate meals together, and had dinner at Ikea, nothing spectacular went on. It was kind of a huge disappointment on my part.

The freaking worst part is that I can't even blame anyone. And nobody really understands how frustrated I feel. Because really, it all seems like when it comes down to this, I'm not really someone that people would make time for. Not a priority. And it saddens me.

You would feel this way too, if you were in my situation. Because to be honest, I deserve more than this. Promises aren't things to make so you can break them. It's promises that tells the other that no matter what happens, you won't change your mind.

I wished, sincerely, that this day won't be like that. I wished I could be happier.