Been some time
It's been quite some time since I've posted anything. Been very busy, and on top of that, stuff to worry and deal with all the time. Later or tomorrow, I am so going to get grilled. Damn emotional roller coaster AGAIN. Except that it would be for a whole different thing.
In any case, I've decided to you know, change myself more, and become more cheerful, more optimistic, more positive. Because there is something to believe in now, and believing in it requires that much of me. Thus, I have decided to make this change.
But the main point of this post is to put across a message.
I am trying. I try hard, because it is worth it, and it is worth believing. One day, I just know we will be back to when we were again. Even though there won't be those times we spent together coz of work and distance, it's okay. Because I keep you in my heart, and as long as I know you are still with me wherever you are. I will be happy.
People make mistakes. I make mistakes. People get stressed. I get stressed. I'm sorry if I upsetted you in any way. I probably had my reasons then, but those were in the past, and I am now determined to change, not only for us, but because I know that it is good for me.
Yes, I always look forward to the next day. Even if you couldn't tell me that it's going to be okay. That we will stay together and not let go. I look forward to the next day because every day brings new hope, new circumstance, and new opportunities. I still hope and look forward to the day we are able to bridge this emotional gap between us now and go back to the way we were. The way we loved. I look forward, and I have reason to believe, reason to hold on. Reason enough for me to never give up on us.
Even though you're not in school with me right now, I still keep myself smiling. When I'm in the clubroom, I look at the desk where we studied together. When I'm in the canteen buying drinks, I look at the D-Plus bread that we used to squabble over which flavours were the nicest (Purple Potato Paste v.s. Blueberry). When I'm at U-Town and I see subway, I remember how we shares footlong sandwiches while watching Fullmetal Alchemist in your room. When I'm at PGP, I remember the times we had SourceOfHealth Food for dinner, grab bubble red tea, and chilled under the stars; how we did laundry together; how we went back to PGP after every day...
These are memories that mean a lot to me, and I cherish every single one of them. Even if you weren't able to be here physically with me, these are the things that put a smile on my face. I won't let us end like that. These are the things that keep me holding on, because it made me genuinely happy. These are the reasons why I keep believing in us.
And now with the emotional gap between us, I am damn well going to patch it up for us. We are most definitely going to work things out.
If you're reading this now, I sincerely hope that you'd forgive me for the things I've done to upset you, and give us both a chance to hold on.
I love you, Lennie.
In any case, I've decided to you know, change myself more, and become more cheerful, more optimistic, more positive. Because there is something to believe in now, and believing in it requires that much of me. Thus, I have decided to make this change.
But the main point of this post is to put across a message.
I am trying. I try hard, because it is worth it, and it is worth believing. One day, I just know we will be back to when we were again. Even though there won't be those times we spent together coz of work and distance, it's okay. Because I keep you in my heart, and as long as I know you are still with me wherever you are. I will be happy.
People make mistakes. I make mistakes. People get stressed. I get stressed. I'm sorry if I upsetted you in any way. I probably had my reasons then, but those were in the past, and I am now determined to change, not only for us, but because I know that it is good for me.
Yes, I always look forward to the next day. Even if you couldn't tell me that it's going to be okay. That we will stay together and not let go. I look forward to the next day because every day brings new hope, new circumstance, and new opportunities. I still hope and look forward to the day we are able to bridge this emotional gap between us now and go back to the way we were. The way we loved. I look forward, and I have reason to believe, reason to hold on. Reason enough for me to never give up on us.
Even though you're not in school with me right now, I still keep myself smiling. When I'm in the clubroom, I look at the desk where we studied together. When I'm in the canteen buying drinks, I look at the D-Plus bread that we used to squabble over which flavours were the nicest (Purple Potato Paste v.s. Blueberry). When I'm at U-Town and I see subway, I remember how we shares footlong sandwiches while watching Fullmetal Alchemist in your room. When I'm at PGP, I remember the times we had SourceOfHealth Food for dinner, grab bubble red tea, and chilled under the stars; how we did laundry together; how we went back to PGP after every day...
These are memories that mean a lot to me, and I cherish every single one of them. Even if you weren't able to be here physically with me, these are the things that put a smile on my face. I won't let us end like that. These are the things that keep me holding on, because it made me genuinely happy. These are the reasons why I keep believing in us.
And now with the emotional gap between us, I am damn well going to patch it up for us. We are most definitely going to work things out.
If you're reading this now, I sincerely hope that you'd forgive me for the things I've done to upset you, and give us both a chance to hold on.
I love you, Lennie.
