Long night
A long time ago, I had to shift blog address very frequently coz Someone will keep having stuff to say about my posts. But not annymore. My blog is my blog, and what I post is up to me... Thus, I will stand by my posts, and not just avoid, avoid, avoid. Besides, I'm not flaming anyone or posting defamatory contents.
In any case, this weekend is the Internal Elections for the club. We only managed to allocate one position the entire night. And now we can't start the Elections coz we aren't able to meet the quorum. Sigh. It's going to be a damn long day again.
But it's good lar, coz this session really bonded the new committee together and we are able to talk, laugh, joke... In the midst of seriousness still have fun.
Despite having other stuff to worry about, I still managed to keep my focus last night. Good job to the candidate though, hats off for standing there really long and still have the same passion throughout.
Still hope for a better tomorrow every single day. Even if I was going to remain positive now because I have something to believe in, sometimes can't help but think how much will be lost if something bad happens. Coz of that, I am not going to give up because I don't want to lose this part of myself. But to have gained such a perspective in life, I hope I can use it to go on to improve whatever I had in the past that I had lost due to the mistake. I think this is the thing that will really make me ditch my past and have something real to look forward to.
Hmm. Birthday coming anyway, but then again I don't want to expect so much out of it. Since last year been looking forward to the BIG 20! Yays. It would have been perfect la, would have is the word. But something struck and then it's not going to be like that anymore.
And recently, someone told me this statement, "When something bad happens, we don't find blame. The most important thing is to find a solution..."
Simple statement, but managed to touch me in various ways. It matters not now that I might just never have the same sort of happiness that I had, and I don't find fault anymore because I have done my part in apology and have the intention to put all unpleasantness behind me and then start with a new slate in my rs. Now I just want to do my best to fix it.
So even though my birthday won't be as sweet and perfect and ideal now, I don't blame anyone for it. I just want to make the best out of it, and give me the happy birthday that I deserve for making it through 20 years of my life. For going through the trials and tribulations and surviving them, learning from my mistakes, for the people I've helped or the people I've reached out to, the people whose lives have changed for the better because of me.
On that day, I shouldn't deserve to be sad. It is a celebration of my birth and existence in the world and no matter what, I deserve to be happy on my birthday.
(Though, my heart goes out to all 911 victims.)
In any case, this weekend is the Internal Elections for the club. We only managed to allocate one position the entire night. And now we can't start the Elections coz we aren't able to meet the quorum. Sigh. It's going to be a damn long day again.
But it's good lar, coz this session really bonded the new committee together and we are able to talk, laugh, joke... In the midst of seriousness still have fun.
Despite having other stuff to worry about, I still managed to keep my focus last night. Good job to the candidate though, hats off for standing there really long and still have the same passion throughout.
Still hope for a better tomorrow every single day. Even if I was going to remain positive now because I have something to believe in, sometimes can't help but think how much will be lost if something bad happens. Coz of that, I am not going to give up because I don't want to lose this part of myself. But to have gained such a perspective in life, I hope I can use it to go on to improve whatever I had in the past that I had lost due to the mistake. I think this is the thing that will really make me ditch my past and have something real to look forward to.
Hmm. Birthday coming anyway, but then again I don't want to expect so much out of it. Since last year been looking forward to the BIG 20! Yays. It would have been perfect la, would have is the word. But something struck and then it's not going to be like that anymore.
And recently, someone told me this statement, "When something bad happens, we don't find blame. The most important thing is to find a solution..."
Simple statement, but managed to touch me in various ways. It matters not now that I might just never have the same sort of happiness that I had, and I don't find fault anymore because I have done my part in apology and have the intention to put all unpleasantness behind me and then start with a new slate in my rs. Now I just want to do my best to fix it.
So even though my birthday won't be as sweet and perfect and ideal now, I don't blame anyone for it. I just want to make the best out of it, and give me the happy birthday that I deserve for making it through 20 years of my life. For going through the trials and tribulations and surviving them, learning from my mistakes, for the people I've helped or the people I've reached out to, the people whose lives have changed for the better because of me.
On that day, I shouldn't deserve to be sad. It is a celebration of my birth and existence in the world and no matter what, I deserve to be happy on my birthday.
(Though, my heart goes out to all 911 victims.)
