Save my birthday!
Today, or for the past two weeks, I found out that my birthday was ruined. FML.
Been reading FMLs these few days to lighten up a bit and to see that I wasn't the only one whose life is filled with misfortunate events. It did serve its purpose and made me smile so yea, good good (:
Well, I know I always say that things are unfair and such but okay, this is really unfair. -,- I gave him a series of celebrations during his birthday and in return, I get messages from him since the past two weeks that he can't wait to leave me.
OH. OH. OH. How great a 'present' this is!!
._. I realised I'm painting him in a bad light.
Sorreh.
But it can't beat this feeling I've got here with an impending screwed up birthday. Haihx.
You know I'm gonna be hurt again the same way I was last time... The thought of it really makes me sick. And determined to prevent it from occurring. And it's why I am not going to give up.
In general, I still can't understand why some people are just such irritating people, to put it in a nice way. Like, how could anyone just decide to leave and leave just like that? Without any consideration whatsoever, without any qualms that they could've hurt someone or ruined their lives, after spending such an amount of time and dedication into it?
Last year's birthday, I spent it upset at not being able to join SCMC. And wished for a better birthday next year. Well, guess what, it's so much more worse now.
Only if I could solve this shit and go back to the way we were.
Would be really appreciative if my live doesn't screw up anymore. Sigh.
In any case, I am still trying to be positive and optimistic. So I am being confident that my upsetedness now is temporary and I will be able to resolve it and go back to the way I like it to be. No matter what, it's gonna be something I will do until it gets solved. Nobody, not even HIM is going to stop me.
I will freaking show you that you're WRONG now and you will regret your thinking next time because I will solve it no matter what you say.
This week supposed to be a happy one that will accumulate and make my birthday a great one. Not anymore.
Been reading FMLs these few days to lighten up a bit and to see that I wasn't the only one whose life is filled with misfortunate events. It did serve its purpose and made me smile so yea, good good (:
Well, I know I always say that things are unfair and such but okay, this is really unfair. -,- I gave him a series of celebrations during his birthday and in return, I get messages from him since the past two weeks that he can't wait to leave me.
OH. OH. OH. How great a 'present' this is!!
._. I realised I'm painting him in a bad light.
Sorreh.
But it can't beat this feeling I've got here with an impending screwed up birthday. Haihx.
You know I'm gonna be hurt again the same way I was last time... The thought of it really makes me sick. And determined to prevent it from occurring. And it's why I am not going to give up.
In general, I still can't understand why some people are just such irritating people, to put it in a nice way. Like, how could anyone just decide to leave and leave just like that? Without any consideration whatsoever, without any qualms that they could've hurt someone or ruined their lives, after spending such an amount of time and dedication into it?
Last year's birthday, I spent it upset at not being able to join SCMC. And wished for a better birthday next year. Well, guess what, it's so much more worse now.
Only if I could solve this shit and go back to the way we were.
Would be really appreciative if my live doesn't screw up anymore. Sigh.
In any case, I am still trying to be positive and optimistic. So I am being confident that my upsetedness now is temporary and I will be able to resolve it and go back to the way I like it to be. No matter what, it's gonna be something I will do until it gets solved. Nobody, not even HIM is going to stop me.
I will freaking show you that you're WRONG now and you will regret your thinking next time because I will solve it no matter what you say.
This week supposed to be a happy one that will accumulate and make my birthday a great one. Not anymore.
