I'm back from Tioman trip, like finally! But I shall blog about that next time. For now I shall rant, rant, and rant about people.

I hope it won't be blatantly obvious. Just assume that it's general stuff la huh.

What's with people waiting for others to get somewhere in life?! Like if you can reach somewhere in life, a point where you have a chance to be in NOW. Just because your friend or what got no such opportunity, or is too blur or whatever, it doesn't mean that just coz of that then you say "ohcozmyfrensayssomethingthenigottadoitlikehedoes." That is just freaking retarded. Like if you have a chance to go overseas fully sponsored or something like that, and then your friend doesn't and says something like "Well, I don't really expect to go overseas now anyway." And then you decided to give up on your once in a lifetime chance just because your friend doesn't expect to go overseas. So you'd rather spend time scringing and saving for a trip that could be fully sponsored? SHEESH LAH! Annoying annoying annoying!

And I also don't understand how some people who can obviously see what's going on, know what's going on, and still manage to do things that screw stuff up for the another person. People are freaking trying damn hard to achieve something, and there you are, going around without a care of trodding on others' toes. Those people are like those things that make your efforts double to get to the same destination. But the point here is that what if people are running out of time and require as much efficacy as possible? Are you going to put your butt in and make people screw up and never reach their goals? SHEESH LAH! Just have some common sense can? Just coz stuff are going well for you doesn't mean that other people's lives are going that well. Just because stuff for you are easily obtainable, it doesn't mean stuff for others are as easily obtainable. Some things require that much more luck and more specific circumstances, and just please stop screwing things up for others can?

Wahlau.

A small post about the trip here first before I forget my feelings and all.

Obviously there were various (many) occasions during the trip that I was totally pissed, frustrated, and angry. Maybe sad as well.

Could totally get them under control. Managed to bury them deep enough for the moment because I know one day I will have to take them back up. I guess now is the time to feel the impact of all those buried emotions, every single one of them. Drain their power on myself so I won't hurt anyone; I'd rather be the one feeling the pain.

I still remember the time I couldn't take it anymore for a short while and just walked away. I just wished everything could be fine. Everything could go smoothly. So that I can regain my confidence, and be happy for real, just for once.

Then I don't have to face all that shit all by myself, because I'm shittily tired of doing that.

I'm trying not to screw up anymore, yet some people are annoying and shit enough to screw things up for me. Annoying enough to distract me from what I plan to do.

Sigh. Damn them all.